Aria wasn’t quite sure why she did things like this, things that butchered her insides in such a way. Maybe it was a need for memories, something to hold her to this world, as if putting her soul in pain would keep it from leaving her body. She slid a CD in to the slot of her car stereo, and turned up the music, it was a mix from her favorite bands.
She missed him, every minute of the day she couldn’t see his face, or hear his voice she missed him. And it hurt her, it felt like someone was punching her in the stomach, she wanted to scream, but she couldn’t. If she screamed she would cry, Aria hated crying, because it just made her hurt more.
That’s the thing about online relationships, you can’t ever be close to the person you’re in love with, if you’re really in love with them at all. Aria had been questioning what she’d been feeling for a long time now. She knew it was completely irrational, and extremely stupid for her to be in love with this boy, someone she’d never even met! She was the one who’d said she’d never do that, be stupid and fall in love with someone on the other side of a screen.
She was the one it’d happened to though, and she hated it, but she loved him. And she knew that she would give anything, short of her soul, to meet him. Which was the stupidest thing she’d ever considered, she hadn’t ever seen him, she didn’t know his voice, she didn’t know him!
Aria was nearing home, she knew what she would do once she got there. She’d turn on the computer and talk to this boy who lived halfway across the world. And put herself in pain again.
She wanted to scream, but she couldn’t. If she screamed she would cry, Aria hated crying, because it just made her hurt more.
She missed him, every minute of the day she couldn’t see his face, or hear his voice she missed him. And it hurt her, it felt like someone was punching her in the stomach, she wanted to scream, but she couldn’t. If she screamed she would cry, Aria hated crying, because it just made her hurt more.
That’s the thing about online relationships, you can’t ever be close to the person you’re in love with, if you’re really in love with them at all. Aria had been questioning what she’d been feeling for a long time now. She knew it was completely irrational, and extremely stupid for her to be in love with this boy, someone she’d never even met! She was the one who’d said she’d never do that, be stupid and fall in love with someone on the other side of a screen.
She was the one it’d happened to though, and she hated it, but she loved him. And she knew that she would give anything, short of her soul, to meet him. Which was the stupidest thing she’d ever considered, she hadn’t ever seen him, she didn’t know his voice, she didn’t know him!
Aria was nearing home, she knew what she would do once she got there. She’d turn on the computer and talk to this boy who lived halfway across the world. And put herself in pain again.
She wanted to scream, but she couldn’t. If she screamed she would cry, Aria hated crying, because it just made her hurt more.