HisGothicTwilightPrincess
Princess
Part 4 (Life and Death)
Chapter 36 (Allergies)
Spring had come at last and the entire forest smelled like honeysuckles. At first I had found it a pleasant, soothing smell…now it was just getting on my nerves. My nose was stuffy, my eyes were watery, and I had a pounding headache. Between the worrying of Kakashi, Neji, and Tsunade I had enough allergy medicine in my system to kill an elephant. I’d been confined to my bedroom for days and whenever she visited I practically begged my mother to give me a mission outside of the forest.
“I don’t like you being where I can’t keep an eye on you,” she would say.
“I’m more than capable of taking care of myself. Stop being such a mom,” I’d retort. Then she would smile and tell me she didn’t have any outside missions anyway.
One morning Neji had come by and, after insisting I take some new sort of medicine that tasted like cherries, was laying in my bed with me, stroking my hair while I sulked.
“This is so stupid! I’d be fine if I could just get away from the trees for a little while. Stupid allergies,” I groaned. I sniffed loudly, willing my sinuses to clear.
“You should use a tissue, you know?” said a voice from the doorway. We looked up to see Tsunade standing there.
“What?” I asked, my voice sounding especially nasally.
“A tissue. Instead of sucking the stuff back into your head like a disgusting boy…no offense, Neji,” she said quickly.
“None taken. I, too, find it utterly revolting,” he replied with a faint smile.
“I meant what are you doing here mom,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“Oh, well, I might have a mission that floated across my desk for you two,” she said mischievously.
“What? Where? When? Who?” I asked excitedly, getting to my feet. Neji grabbed the back of my pajamas and pulled me back onto the bed.
“You can leave today if you feel well enough…and you’ll be going to Sunagakure with Kakashi,” Tsunade said. Neji and I exchanged glances and our smiles quickly faded.
“What’s wrong?” Tsunade asked, not missing the exchange.
“Nothing,” I said quickly, “What do the sand ninja need us for?”
“I’m not exactly sure, but it was something about a giant worm,” she replied hesitantly, “I can ask the Sand ninja. They’re in my office.”
“Wait…what? Who?” I stammered, my heart pounding unpleasantly.
“Temari, Kankuro, Mei,…oh, and Gaara,” she replied. My heart sank into my stomach and somewhere deep within me Kouta stirred slightly. Gaara was here, in the village!
When Tsunade was gone I got up without saying anything to Neji. I found some clean clothes in my closet. Neji turned away respectfully as I stripped off my Bugs Bunny pajamas and dressed in blue jeans and a fresh white T-shirt. When I turned back and looked at him his eyes mirrored the hurt that shone in my own. I walked over and kissed him in what I hoped was a reassuring manner.
“I love you,” I murmured. It was the first time I had said it out loud. He smiled but the pain didn’t fully leave his eyes.
“I love you, too,” he responded, getting up. My heart soared and I smiled at him.
I grabbed my backpack and filled it with stuff and then followed Neji to his house, sneezing the entire way. When Neji retrieved his bag from his house we walked towards the Hokage’s office.
Neji squeezed my hand as we walked up and saw them standing there. Mei who smiled at me, Kankuro and Temari who were arguing amongst themselves, and Gaara who was staring at me with no expression at all on his face. Kakashi was there as well and he noticed Gaara’s gaze.
“Hey, kiddo, are you ready to go?” Kakashi asked cheerfully.
“Yeah, almost…where’s mom?” I inquired, grateful for the distraction of the conversation.
“I dunno. Why?”
“I wanted to ask her something.”
At that moment the sound of approaching footsteps made me turn my head. Tsunade was walking towards me.
“Hey Kiko. What’d you want me for?” she inquired. I marveled at her ability to show up when I needed her.
“Should I take the Leaf Sword?” I asked her.
“If you think it will help,” she replied evenly.
“Well what is it we have to do exactly?”
Kankuro stepped forward, drawn from his argument with Temari.
“There’s some sort of worm that’s been attacking people in the desert. We think it’s getting close to the Village and we would like your help to stop it,” Kankuro explained.
“A worm?” I repeated, eyebrow raised.
“A giant worm,” Temari said with emphasis.
“And not just a giant worm,” said an overly enthusiastic Mei, “It’s a giant sand worm. It’s like a billion feet long! It’s the epitome of giant worms!”
“Ah. So that’s why you need us,” Neji said.
“Wait. If it’s made of sand…shouldn’t G-Gaara be able to control it?” I asked, looking at Gaara who was looking at me. I cursed myself for stammering when I said his name.
“I can’t,” he said in his eerie monotonous voice. Everyone was silent for a moment. Then I turned to Tsunade, unable to look at Gaara any longer.
“I think I’ll get the Leaf Sword,” I murmured to her.
“Well be careful with it…and don’t cut yourself,” she replied. I scowled at her.
“Such a mom,” I said, rolling my eyes. She smiled faintly.
“You’d better hurry up, Tsukiko. We need to leave shortly,” Kakashi said to me.
“Sure. Neji, will you come with me? …to make sure I don’t get attacked by rabid monkeys or something?” I said jokingly. He smiled at my joke and nodded his head.
“Oh great, now we’ll never get out of here,” I heard Kakashi mutter as we walked towards the forest. I turned my head and stuck out my tongue at him.
Neither Neji or I spoke for a few minutes as I led us towards the Waterfall Place. When we came out into the clearing he looked around curiously.
“So this is where you hid your father’s sword?” he inquired as I walked towards the round stone.
“Yes.”
Neji was one of the only people who knew about Orochimaru’s birthday gift. I got the sword, but was in no real hurry to face Gaara again. Neji was staring at the waterfall with his back to me. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist. I still had the sword in my hand and I pressed the flat side of the blade against his stomach.
“Getting a little violent, aren’t we?” he murmured as I bit his neck playfully. I chuckled quietly and licked the same spot. He went oddly still and I loosened my grip on the sword a little bit. He turned, knocking the blade from my hand, and kissed me deeply.
“Oh!” I exclaimed on an exhale. This time it was Neji who chuckled. He kissed me again, resting his hands on my waist.
“We should probably get back before they send Kakashi-sensei after us,” he said quietly.
“Yeah, that wouldn’t be good at all. Who knows what kind of scene he would walk up on.”
“We’ll have time on the way to Sunagakure. We have to stop for the night somewhere, remember?”
“Ah. Okay, then, let’s go!”
Chapter 37 (Tsukiko and Neji)
Tsunade was still there when Neji and I returned. She eyed the sword with distaste before embracing me.
“Stay safe,” she said to me.
“Yeah, sure,” I muttered, pushing her away in embarrassment. Mei smirked at me.
“Let’s get going,” Kakashi said impatiently, “We have a good ways to go before nightfall.”
“Alright. Bye mom,” I said, waving to her as we walked away. She waved back half-heartedly.
When night fell we had already reached the edge of the desert. We set up camp and pitched tents. Kakashi built a fire and we were all sitting around it, with me sitting as far away from Gaara as possible. Neji stood up suddenly and announced that he was going to find a river to bathe in.
A few minutes after he had left I realized the significance of what he had said. When I was sure no one was looking I slipped off into the woods. It didn’t take me long to find Neji. He actually had gone to the river…but he was waiting for me.
“What took you so long?” he inquired.
“I was being slow. I didn’t realize the significance of what you’d said until just a minute ago,” I replied sheepishly. He rolled his eyes but smiled.
“Well you’re here now. That’s all that matters,” he murmured, wrapping his hands around my waist.
“What’re we doing here?” I asked softly.
“I thought we’d pick up where we left off this afternoon,” he replied, then he kissed me slowly. He was holding back I could tell, not wanting to seem too anxious or eager. I kissed him back with a fiery passion that caught him off guard.
“Why don’t we go for a swim?” I suggested, smiling as he blushed faintly. He inclined his head but before he could say anything I was pulling his shirt off over his head. With his bare chest exposed it was practically impossible for me to keep my eyes on his face. I ran my hands lightly over his chest and he chuckled.
“That tickles, Kiko,” he said with a grin.
“Sorry,” I murmured, pulling my hands away. With lightening quick reflexes he grabbed me and pulled me to him.
“That didn’t necessarily mean for you to stop,” he whispered in my ear.
When I regained the function of my brain, I remembered that we were supposed to be swimming. That had been the whole point of me wearing a bathing suit underneath my clothes.
“Good thing I’m wearing a swimsuit underneath,” I said with a smile.
“I know.”
“What? How could you know that?”
“I know your body better than I know my own. It’s easy for me to imagine what you’re wearing underneath your exterior clothes.”
I snickered and he blushed again.
“I didn’t mean that to sound as bad as it did,” he added quickly.
“Sure. Are we swimming or what?”
“Well you’re still wearing clothes…”
“You can fix that,” I said with a smirk. He hesitated, then slipped his hands
under my shirt and proceeded to pull it off of me, revealing my black bathing suit top. He stared determinedly at the ground.
“Will you stop that?”
“What?”
“That looking away, respectful, crap. It’s annoying as hell,” I said, rolling my eyes. He looked up finally and I was pleased by the fact that his eyes were not on my face, for once.
“This feels awkward,” he admitted bluntly. I sighed and smiled inwardly. I took his hand and placed it on my breast. He gasped audibly.
“Still awkward?” I inquired.
“More so than before,” he gasped breathlessly.
“Ah, hell…I’ve still got pants on you know?”
He pulled his hand away from mine and began to unbutton my jeans, awkward and fumbling as he was.
When I was left with nothing but a bathing suit and he had on nothing more than shorts we ventured out into the cool water. Surprisingly my sinuses had cleared and I could breathe openly for the first time in months.
We were both floating carelessly in the water, but I was feeling mischievous. When his eyes were closed I swam up next to him silently. I spit a mouthful of water in his face and he sat up, spluttering.
“Did you just spit water in my face?” he demanded, wiping his face.
“Hmm…maybe,” I said playfully, “What’re you gonna do about it?”
He ducked underwater and I, being the slow dim-witted person I am when it comes to Neji, leaned over to see what he was doing. He came up quickly and spit water in my face. Some went up my nose, making me cough and sneeze simultaneously.
“Are you alright?” he asked, suppressing laughter.
“No. Stop laughing at me,” I said, pouting. He let his laughter burst forth, but instead of being angry I delighted in it. I stopped his laughter by wrapping my arms around him and kissing him.
Our kiss became very intimate and his full attention was now focused on it whereas my mind was wondering if I could actually do what I was hoping to do. His hands were on my waist and I sneakily inched them lower. He didn’t even notice as his kiss became a trail of kissed, leading from my lips to my collarbone.
“Neji?” I murmured in his ear.
“Hm?”
“I want you. Now.”
He lifted his head and looked at me, surveying my determined expression with a definite longing. Finding not even a shadow of a doubt in my gaze he kissed me deeply, leading me back towards shore.
As soon as we were on dry land he grabbed his previously abandoned pants and pulled a small foil packet out of the back pocket.
“Oh, was this premeditated?” I asked with a smirk.
“I’m always prepared,” he replied, smiling faintly.
“That’s the boy scouts, Neji,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“Psh. Boy Scouts don’t carry condoms.”
“Good point.”
We resumed our kissing and this time there was no space between us. I could feel all of him pressed against me and every ounce of me wanted him. With the same beautiful awkwardness he had earlier he slid down my bathing suit bottoms. I became increasingly anxious and I now had my first moment of doubt. I was shaking slightly, imagining what could happen if Kouta decided to come and play.
“Tsukiko? You’re trembling…are you okay?” Neji asked, distressed.
“Just a little nervous. I’m okay.”
He paused for a moment.
“You know I’ve never…”
“It’s okay,” I assured him, “I’ll help make it easier. Surely you’ve had fantasies?”
“Well…yeah…”
“Good. Let’s go with that, then.”
“Are you ready?”
“More than ever.”
Chapter 38 (Tsukiko and Gaara)
Afterwards we lay together in the ultimate state of bliss, staring at the stars. We were both smiling and feeling pleased with ourselves. Kouta had stayed dormant the entire time, which made it easier.
“So, was it better than your fantasies?” I asked Neji.
“So much better. Was it better than yours?”
“Definitely,” I replied. Especially since my fantasies were usually penetrated by a vision of Kouta bursting forth and killing him.
When we returned to the camp everyone was asleep, except for the eternal insomniac, Gaara. I blushed as his eyes followed us into the tent. Kakashi was already asleep so Neji and I snuggled up close. I had my face pressed against his chest and he began to stroke my hair gently. I fell asleep, feeling happier than I had in a long time.
The next morning we all awoke to find the weather had turned stifling hot. Mei grinned at me as Neji and I crawled groggily out of the tent after everyone else was already awake.
“We should probably go fill up our water bottles before we start off into the desert,” Temari was saying to Kakashi as he stomped out the fire.
“Probably we should stay away from the river…who knows what sort of bodily fluids Kiko and Neji left in there last night,” Mei said, still grinning.
“Mei!” I protested loudly, “We weren’t even in the water!”
“Well, I’m going to go throw up now,” Kankuro said sarcastically from where he sat polishing his puppet, Crow.
“Teenagers,” Kakashi grumbled, rolling his eyes, “Why is it I always get stuck with them?”
The only one who didn’t say anything was Gaara and that was because he was sitting at the edge of the camp with his back to the rest of us. Neji was assessing the situation with a somewhat calm expression on his face, but he was blushing and I wasn’t the only one who noticed. Mei, who at some point had acquired my Leaf Sword and was twirling it carelessly, noticed Neji’s blush.
“Oh, look! Neji’s blushing! How cute!” Mei exclaimed, her eyes twinkling mischievously.
“Mei, shut up before I take that Leaf Sword and shove it up your-”
“Alright, now, that’s enough,” Kakashi interrupted my threat, “Let’s get going or we’ll never make it to the Sand Village before sundown.”
“Still, we might want to find a different river to fill up our water bottles,” Temari continued, “I wouldn’t want anyone to pass out from dehydration.”
“I know where one is,” said a low, monotonous voice. We all looked over to Gaara who stood up, his eyes still closed, and pointed Westwards.
“In the desert about a mile in,” he went on, “There’s a small stream.”
“Way to go, Gaara,” Kankuro said, but Gaara didn’t even glance at him. His eyes were open now and he was looking at me. Neji walked over and put a possessive arm around my waist without even looking at Gaara.
“Are you okay?” he murmured in my ear.
“Yeah,” I replied, feeling horrible.
We did reach the Sand Village before sundown and the Sand Siblings plus Mei led us to the hotel where we had stayed the last time.
“Tomorrow we’ll be going to face the Sand Worm so get some sleep,” Temari said to us before they all departed.
The three of us went inside and Neji and I went to the room that had been his previously. We began to unpack and as the sun went down I started to feel uneasy.
“What’s wrong Tsukiko?” Neji murmured, wrapping his arms around me.
“I feel…uneasy. I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep well tonight. I think I’ll go for a walk,” I said quietly.
“Would you like for me to come with you?” he asked me.
“No, I’ll be fine. You look exhausted anyway.”
“If you’re sure,” he said, reluctantly letting me go.
I wandered around the village on my own for a while. I came to the spot where Kouta had killed my father’s spies. I shuddered at the memory: two bloody corpses at my feet. Neji reaching out for me. Gaara appearing and taking me away…and what we had done afterwards…
A sudden force caught me off guard and knocked me backwards, pinning me against the wall of a building. A dark figure emerged from the shadows.
“Don’t hurt me!” I cried instinctively, realizing almost at once how much I sounded like the typical damsal in distress.
“I don’t want to hurt you. You’ve never been very good at reading my facial expressions, have you?” replied a familiar voice.
“G-Gaara?” I stammered, not altogether relieved.
“Who else could it be?” he inquired, moving out of the shadows so I could see him clearly.
“My father…”
“Which would be?”
“Lord Orochimaru…and my mother is the Hokage.”
“Really. Interesting…”
“So why am I pinned to a wall?” I inquired, interrupting his thoughts.
“I wanted to ask you something.”
“Ask away.”
“Are you happy… with him?” he asked, a faint note of bitterness in his voice. Pain shot through my heart.
“Gaara…I’m sorry, but…yes. I love Neji,” I murmured, my eyes full of tears.
“Hey! Get away from her!” a voice shouted loudly. We both turned our heads to see Neji running towards us.
“It’s okay Neji, we’re just talking,” I assured him before he could attack Gaara.
“Tsukiko, he has you pinned to a wall!” he exclaimed.
“Oh yeah,” I said, looking down at the sand that held me.
“I didn’t want you to run off before I could talk to you. Maybe it was overkill…but it’s not my fault,” Gaara murmured.
“It’s Shukaku. Gaara can’t help it, like me with Kouta,” I explained to Neji.
“Right, well, will he let you down now?” Neji asked, teeth gritted.
Without saying anything Gaara withdrew his sand and walked off into the night. I collapsed into Neji’s arms and he kissed my forehead gently.
“Are you okay? He didn’t hurt you did he?” he murmured, holding me close.
“No, I’m fine,” I replied, “I still don’t think I can sleep though. I’ll probably never be able to sleep well here…”
“Well, lucky for you I know something we can do that’s better than sleeping,” he said with a playful smile, “What say we go back to the room?”
“I can roll with that,” I said, grinning.
Later (a lot later) Neji and I both fell asleep. My sleep was troubled and uneasy and I soon began to dream.
Shukaku was rampaging freely through the village, killing anyone who crossed his path. Gaara was asleep and Shukaku was searching for one person in particular, the one who had taken Kouta from him…the silver-eyed boy…
I awoke with a shudder, hoping that it was only a dream, but I wasn’t sure this time. Neji still slept deeply. I pressed my face against his bare chest and sighed. I felt him stir slightly.
“I love you, Kiko,” he mumbled drowsily.
“I love you, too, Neji. Go back to sleep,” I murmured in response. Within seconds he was snoring again.
Chapter 36 (Allergies)
Spring had come at last and the entire forest smelled like honeysuckles. At first I had found it a pleasant, soothing smell…now it was just getting on my nerves. My nose was stuffy, my eyes were watery, and I had a pounding headache. Between the worrying of Kakashi, Neji, and Tsunade I had enough allergy medicine in my system to kill an elephant. I’d been confined to my bedroom for days and whenever she visited I practically begged my mother to give me a mission outside of the forest.
“I don’t like you being where I can’t keep an eye on you,” she would say.
“I’m more than capable of taking care of myself. Stop being such a mom,” I’d retort. Then she would smile and tell me she didn’t have any outside missions anyway.
One morning Neji had come by and, after insisting I take some new sort of medicine that tasted like cherries, was laying in my bed with me, stroking my hair while I sulked.
“This is so stupid! I’d be fine if I could just get away from the trees for a little while. Stupid allergies,” I groaned. I sniffed loudly, willing my sinuses to clear.
“You should use a tissue, you know?” said a voice from the doorway. We looked up to see Tsunade standing there.
“What?” I asked, my voice sounding especially nasally.
“A tissue. Instead of sucking the stuff back into your head like a disgusting boy…no offense, Neji,” she said quickly.
“None taken. I, too, find it utterly revolting,” he replied with a faint smile.
“I meant what are you doing here mom,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“Oh, well, I might have a mission that floated across my desk for you two,” she said mischievously.
“What? Where? When? Who?” I asked excitedly, getting to my feet. Neji grabbed the back of my pajamas and pulled me back onto the bed.
“You can leave today if you feel well enough…and you’ll be going to Sunagakure with Kakashi,” Tsunade said. Neji and I exchanged glances and our smiles quickly faded.
“What’s wrong?” Tsunade asked, not missing the exchange.
“Nothing,” I said quickly, “What do the sand ninja need us for?”
“I’m not exactly sure, but it was something about a giant worm,” she replied hesitantly, “I can ask the Sand ninja. They’re in my office.”
“Wait…what? Who?” I stammered, my heart pounding unpleasantly.
“Temari, Kankuro, Mei,…oh, and Gaara,” she replied. My heart sank into my stomach and somewhere deep within me Kouta stirred slightly. Gaara was here, in the village!
When Tsunade was gone I got up without saying anything to Neji. I found some clean clothes in my closet. Neji turned away respectfully as I stripped off my Bugs Bunny pajamas and dressed in blue jeans and a fresh white T-shirt. When I turned back and looked at him his eyes mirrored the hurt that shone in my own. I walked over and kissed him in what I hoped was a reassuring manner.
“I love you,” I murmured. It was the first time I had said it out loud. He smiled but the pain didn’t fully leave his eyes.
“I love you, too,” he responded, getting up. My heart soared and I smiled at him.
I grabbed my backpack and filled it with stuff and then followed Neji to his house, sneezing the entire way. When Neji retrieved his bag from his house we walked towards the Hokage’s office.
Neji squeezed my hand as we walked up and saw them standing there. Mei who smiled at me, Kankuro and Temari who were arguing amongst themselves, and Gaara who was staring at me with no expression at all on his face. Kakashi was there as well and he noticed Gaara’s gaze.
“Hey, kiddo, are you ready to go?” Kakashi asked cheerfully.
“Yeah, almost…where’s mom?” I inquired, grateful for the distraction of the conversation.
“I dunno. Why?”
“I wanted to ask her something.”
At that moment the sound of approaching footsteps made me turn my head. Tsunade was walking towards me.
“Hey Kiko. What’d you want me for?” she inquired. I marveled at her ability to show up when I needed her.
“Should I take the Leaf Sword?” I asked her.
“If you think it will help,” she replied evenly.
“Well what is it we have to do exactly?”
Kankuro stepped forward, drawn from his argument with Temari.
“There’s some sort of worm that’s been attacking people in the desert. We think it’s getting close to the Village and we would like your help to stop it,” Kankuro explained.
“A worm?” I repeated, eyebrow raised.
“A giant worm,” Temari said with emphasis.
“And not just a giant worm,” said an overly enthusiastic Mei, “It’s a giant sand worm. It’s like a billion feet long! It’s the epitome of giant worms!”
“Ah. So that’s why you need us,” Neji said.
“Wait. If it’s made of sand…shouldn’t G-Gaara be able to control it?” I asked, looking at Gaara who was looking at me. I cursed myself for stammering when I said his name.
“I can’t,” he said in his eerie monotonous voice. Everyone was silent for a moment. Then I turned to Tsunade, unable to look at Gaara any longer.
“I think I’ll get the Leaf Sword,” I murmured to her.
“Well be careful with it…and don’t cut yourself,” she replied. I scowled at her.
“Such a mom,” I said, rolling my eyes. She smiled faintly.
“You’d better hurry up, Tsukiko. We need to leave shortly,” Kakashi said to me.
“Sure. Neji, will you come with me? …to make sure I don’t get attacked by rabid monkeys or something?” I said jokingly. He smiled at my joke and nodded his head.
“Oh great, now we’ll never get out of here,” I heard Kakashi mutter as we walked towards the forest. I turned my head and stuck out my tongue at him.
Neither Neji or I spoke for a few minutes as I led us towards the Waterfall Place. When we came out into the clearing he looked around curiously.
“So this is where you hid your father’s sword?” he inquired as I walked towards the round stone.
“Yes.”
Neji was one of the only people who knew about Orochimaru’s birthday gift. I got the sword, but was in no real hurry to face Gaara again. Neji was staring at the waterfall with his back to me. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist. I still had the sword in my hand and I pressed the flat side of the blade against his stomach.
“Getting a little violent, aren’t we?” he murmured as I bit his neck playfully. I chuckled quietly and licked the same spot. He went oddly still and I loosened my grip on the sword a little bit. He turned, knocking the blade from my hand, and kissed me deeply.
“Oh!” I exclaimed on an exhale. This time it was Neji who chuckled. He kissed me again, resting his hands on my waist.
“We should probably get back before they send Kakashi-sensei after us,” he said quietly.
“Yeah, that wouldn’t be good at all. Who knows what kind of scene he would walk up on.”
“We’ll have time on the way to Sunagakure. We have to stop for the night somewhere, remember?”
“Ah. Okay, then, let’s go!”
Chapter 37 (Tsukiko and Neji)
Tsunade was still there when Neji and I returned. She eyed the sword with distaste before embracing me.
“Stay safe,” she said to me.
“Yeah, sure,” I muttered, pushing her away in embarrassment. Mei smirked at me.
“Let’s get going,” Kakashi said impatiently, “We have a good ways to go before nightfall.”
“Alright. Bye mom,” I said, waving to her as we walked away. She waved back half-heartedly.
When night fell we had already reached the edge of the desert. We set up camp and pitched tents. Kakashi built a fire and we were all sitting around it, with me sitting as far away from Gaara as possible. Neji stood up suddenly and announced that he was going to find a river to bathe in.
A few minutes after he had left I realized the significance of what he had said. When I was sure no one was looking I slipped off into the woods. It didn’t take me long to find Neji. He actually had gone to the river…but he was waiting for me.
“What took you so long?” he inquired.
“I was being slow. I didn’t realize the significance of what you’d said until just a minute ago,” I replied sheepishly. He rolled his eyes but smiled.
“Well you’re here now. That’s all that matters,” he murmured, wrapping his hands around my waist.
“What’re we doing here?” I asked softly.
“I thought we’d pick up where we left off this afternoon,” he replied, then he kissed me slowly. He was holding back I could tell, not wanting to seem too anxious or eager. I kissed him back with a fiery passion that caught him off guard.
“Why don’t we go for a swim?” I suggested, smiling as he blushed faintly. He inclined his head but before he could say anything I was pulling his shirt off over his head. With his bare chest exposed it was practically impossible for me to keep my eyes on his face. I ran my hands lightly over his chest and he chuckled.
“That tickles, Kiko,” he said with a grin.
“Sorry,” I murmured, pulling my hands away. With lightening quick reflexes he grabbed me and pulled me to him.
“That didn’t necessarily mean for you to stop,” he whispered in my ear.
When I regained the function of my brain, I remembered that we were supposed to be swimming. That had been the whole point of me wearing a bathing suit underneath my clothes.
“Good thing I’m wearing a swimsuit underneath,” I said with a smile.
“I know.”
“What? How could you know that?”
“I know your body better than I know my own. It’s easy for me to imagine what you’re wearing underneath your exterior clothes.”
I snickered and he blushed again.
“I didn’t mean that to sound as bad as it did,” he added quickly.
“Sure. Are we swimming or what?”
“Well you’re still wearing clothes…”
“You can fix that,” I said with a smirk. He hesitated, then slipped his hands
under my shirt and proceeded to pull it off of me, revealing my black bathing suit top. He stared determinedly at the ground.
“Will you stop that?”
“What?”
“That looking away, respectful, crap. It’s annoying as hell,” I said, rolling my eyes. He looked up finally and I was pleased by the fact that his eyes were not on my face, for once.
“This feels awkward,” he admitted bluntly. I sighed and smiled inwardly. I took his hand and placed it on my breast. He gasped audibly.
“Still awkward?” I inquired.
“More so than before,” he gasped breathlessly.
“Ah, hell…I’ve still got pants on you know?”
He pulled his hand away from mine and began to unbutton my jeans, awkward and fumbling as he was.
When I was left with nothing but a bathing suit and he had on nothing more than shorts we ventured out into the cool water. Surprisingly my sinuses had cleared and I could breathe openly for the first time in months.
We were both floating carelessly in the water, but I was feeling mischievous. When his eyes were closed I swam up next to him silently. I spit a mouthful of water in his face and he sat up, spluttering.
“Did you just spit water in my face?” he demanded, wiping his face.
“Hmm…maybe,” I said playfully, “What’re you gonna do about it?”
He ducked underwater and I, being the slow dim-witted person I am when it comes to Neji, leaned over to see what he was doing. He came up quickly and spit water in my face. Some went up my nose, making me cough and sneeze simultaneously.
“Are you alright?” he asked, suppressing laughter.
“No. Stop laughing at me,” I said, pouting. He let his laughter burst forth, but instead of being angry I delighted in it. I stopped his laughter by wrapping my arms around him and kissing him.
Our kiss became very intimate and his full attention was now focused on it whereas my mind was wondering if I could actually do what I was hoping to do. His hands were on my waist and I sneakily inched them lower. He didn’t even notice as his kiss became a trail of kissed, leading from my lips to my collarbone.
“Neji?” I murmured in his ear.
“Hm?”
“I want you. Now.”
He lifted his head and looked at me, surveying my determined expression with a definite longing. Finding not even a shadow of a doubt in my gaze he kissed me deeply, leading me back towards shore.
As soon as we were on dry land he grabbed his previously abandoned pants and pulled a small foil packet out of the back pocket.
“Oh, was this premeditated?” I asked with a smirk.
“I’m always prepared,” he replied, smiling faintly.
“That’s the boy scouts, Neji,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“Psh. Boy Scouts don’t carry condoms.”
“Good point.”
We resumed our kissing and this time there was no space between us. I could feel all of him pressed against me and every ounce of me wanted him. With the same beautiful awkwardness he had earlier he slid down my bathing suit bottoms. I became increasingly anxious and I now had my first moment of doubt. I was shaking slightly, imagining what could happen if Kouta decided to come and play.
“Tsukiko? You’re trembling…are you okay?” Neji asked, distressed.
“Just a little nervous. I’m okay.”
He paused for a moment.
“You know I’ve never…”
“It’s okay,” I assured him, “I’ll help make it easier. Surely you’ve had fantasies?”
“Well…yeah…”
“Good. Let’s go with that, then.”
“Are you ready?”
“More than ever.”
Chapter 38 (Tsukiko and Gaara)
Afterwards we lay together in the ultimate state of bliss, staring at the stars. We were both smiling and feeling pleased with ourselves. Kouta had stayed dormant the entire time, which made it easier.
“So, was it better than your fantasies?” I asked Neji.
“So much better. Was it better than yours?”
“Definitely,” I replied. Especially since my fantasies were usually penetrated by a vision of Kouta bursting forth and killing him.
When we returned to the camp everyone was asleep, except for the eternal insomniac, Gaara. I blushed as his eyes followed us into the tent. Kakashi was already asleep so Neji and I snuggled up close. I had my face pressed against his chest and he began to stroke my hair gently. I fell asleep, feeling happier than I had in a long time.
The next morning we all awoke to find the weather had turned stifling hot. Mei grinned at me as Neji and I crawled groggily out of the tent after everyone else was already awake.
“We should probably go fill up our water bottles before we start off into the desert,” Temari was saying to Kakashi as he stomped out the fire.
“Probably we should stay away from the river…who knows what sort of bodily fluids Kiko and Neji left in there last night,” Mei said, still grinning.
“Mei!” I protested loudly, “We weren’t even in the water!”
“Well, I’m going to go throw up now,” Kankuro said sarcastically from where he sat polishing his puppet, Crow.
“Teenagers,” Kakashi grumbled, rolling his eyes, “Why is it I always get stuck with them?”
The only one who didn’t say anything was Gaara and that was because he was sitting at the edge of the camp with his back to the rest of us. Neji was assessing the situation with a somewhat calm expression on his face, but he was blushing and I wasn’t the only one who noticed. Mei, who at some point had acquired my Leaf Sword and was twirling it carelessly, noticed Neji’s blush.
“Oh, look! Neji’s blushing! How cute!” Mei exclaimed, her eyes twinkling mischievously.
“Mei, shut up before I take that Leaf Sword and shove it up your-”
“Alright, now, that’s enough,” Kakashi interrupted my threat, “Let’s get going or we’ll never make it to the Sand Village before sundown.”
“Still, we might want to find a different river to fill up our water bottles,” Temari continued, “I wouldn’t want anyone to pass out from dehydration.”
“I know where one is,” said a low, monotonous voice. We all looked over to Gaara who stood up, his eyes still closed, and pointed Westwards.
“In the desert about a mile in,” he went on, “There’s a small stream.”
“Way to go, Gaara,” Kankuro said, but Gaara didn’t even glance at him. His eyes were open now and he was looking at me. Neji walked over and put a possessive arm around my waist without even looking at Gaara.
“Are you okay?” he murmured in my ear.
“Yeah,” I replied, feeling horrible.
We did reach the Sand Village before sundown and the Sand Siblings plus Mei led us to the hotel where we had stayed the last time.
“Tomorrow we’ll be going to face the Sand Worm so get some sleep,” Temari said to us before they all departed.
The three of us went inside and Neji and I went to the room that had been his previously. We began to unpack and as the sun went down I started to feel uneasy.
“What’s wrong Tsukiko?” Neji murmured, wrapping his arms around me.
“I feel…uneasy. I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep well tonight. I think I’ll go for a walk,” I said quietly.
“Would you like for me to come with you?” he asked me.
“No, I’ll be fine. You look exhausted anyway.”
“If you’re sure,” he said, reluctantly letting me go.
I wandered around the village on my own for a while. I came to the spot where Kouta had killed my father’s spies. I shuddered at the memory: two bloody corpses at my feet. Neji reaching out for me. Gaara appearing and taking me away…and what we had done afterwards…
A sudden force caught me off guard and knocked me backwards, pinning me against the wall of a building. A dark figure emerged from the shadows.
“Don’t hurt me!” I cried instinctively, realizing almost at once how much I sounded like the typical damsal in distress.
“I don’t want to hurt you. You’ve never been very good at reading my facial expressions, have you?” replied a familiar voice.
“G-Gaara?” I stammered, not altogether relieved.
“Who else could it be?” he inquired, moving out of the shadows so I could see him clearly.
“My father…”
“Which would be?”
“Lord Orochimaru…and my mother is the Hokage.”
“Really. Interesting…”
“So why am I pinned to a wall?” I inquired, interrupting his thoughts.
“I wanted to ask you something.”
“Ask away.”
“Are you happy… with him?” he asked, a faint note of bitterness in his voice. Pain shot through my heart.
“Gaara…I’m sorry, but…yes. I love Neji,” I murmured, my eyes full of tears.
“Hey! Get away from her!” a voice shouted loudly. We both turned our heads to see Neji running towards us.
“It’s okay Neji, we’re just talking,” I assured him before he could attack Gaara.
“Tsukiko, he has you pinned to a wall!” he exclaimed.
“Oh yeah,” I said, looking down at the sand that held me.
“I didn’t want you to run off before I could talk to you. Maybe it was overkill…but it’s not my fault,” Gaara murmured.
“It’s Shukaku. Gaara can’t help it, like me with Kouta,” I explained to Neji.
“Right, well, will he let you down now?” Neji asked, teeth gritted.
Without saying anything Gaara withdrew his sand and walked off into the night. I collapsed into Neji’s arms and he kissed my forehead gently.
“Are you okay? He didn’t hurt you did he?” he murmured, holding me close.
“No, I’m fine,” I replied, “I still don’t think I can sleep though. I’ll probably never be able to sleep well here…”
“Well, lucky for you I know something we can do that’s better than sleeping,” he said with a playful smile, “What say we go back to the room?”
“I can roll with that,” I said, grinning.
Later (a lot later) Neji and I both fell asleep. My sleep was troubled and uneasy and I soon began to dream.
Shukaku was rampaging freely through the village, killing anyone who crossed his path. Gaara was asleep and Shukaku was searching for one person in particular, the one who had taken Kouta from him…the silver-eyed boy…
I awoke with a shudder, hoping that it was only a dream, but I wasn’t sure this time. Neji still slept deeply. I pressed my face against his bare chest and sighed. I felt him stir slightly.
“I love you, Kiko,” he mumbled drowsily.
“I love you, too, Neji. Go back to sleep,” I murmured in response. Within seconds he was snoring again.