The thumps were loud. Rhythmic. If the noise wasn't enough to scare off anyone who wandered into the general vicinity, the shadows cast by the large null against the setting sun's backdrop certainly would.
Nova slammed his helmeted head into a rock once. Twice. Thrice. Over and over. Only pausing to look around. For brown, stony debris at his feet.
Yet there was nothing. He tried harder. Struck with more force. There was pressure in Nova's head, sure, but nothing to suggest this was breaking. If anything, the rock was worse off. Tiny little cracks that glistened from shiny specks deeper inside it.
No. No, no, no.
"Off! Off!" Nova dropped down, dragging his head against the dirt.
Clawing furiously at the mask to no avail.
Why why why? The mask shouldn't be here. It wasn't
natural. Even if someone or something replicated him, the mask wasn't
part of the base designed. The Affirmer
forced it on him with that damn Red Chain.
At the very least, it couldn't have been nearly as sturdy as real one. So, why? Why couldn't he get it off?
The clawing produced a grating, grinding noise that made Nova's fur prickle. Reminded him of a grotesque Metal Sound. Right, he'd learned that at... some point during his construction work.
Nova bolted to his feet and went back to striking the rock, pausing only to look up as if the group's summoner was up in the thick gray clouds.
Why? Smack.
Why would you do this to me? Smack.
Didn't you see it? Smack.
How uncomfortable I was in the Nexus? Smack.
How can I live, smack,
as me, smack,
when I'm stuck with a reminder of what I'm not?!
Still no pieces. Or even flecks of brown dust. Nothing. Useless. He couldn't break it. Why couldn't he break it?
Snarling, Nova struck one again, putting whatever he could into it. This time something gave way, but it wasn't the mask. Part of the rock splintered and a yelping Nova fell over on his side. Limbs briefly flailed in a panic. Bits of red vapor faded around him.
His heart seized in his throat. He recognized that from the gala. The other null had done it: Body Press. That wasn't natural for him. He shouldn't know it. Nova
couldn't know it.
Panicking, Nova scrambled up.
No. This has to stop! He knew that voice only showed up in battles or dungeons, so he was barking at the proverbial choir.
I can't-- I can't fight. Not like this! I'll... I'll...
He shook himself out. The mask rattled around. Squeezed his face. His beak.
Nova backed away from the rock and dashed away. No one had to know about this. As long as he just kept his distance.
... Which was fine. He'd been doing that for ages anyway.
It was instinctive. Routine.
It was all he had.
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