Ben didn't know what exactly had possessed him to come out here.
He'd found a letter slipped underneath his door at the Haus this morning. It was short, and it had read the following:
Hi, Ben. It's Andre.
It seems that our time here is soon coming to a close.
If we have anything to say to one another before we forget all this, we should say it now. If there is anything we want to do, we should do it now.
Come meet me at the specified location at 3 PM today.
Thanks in advance,
Andre Duval
There had been a little map of Frontier Town attached, one Ben supposed Andre must have traced from another map, drawing in the most distinct locations and leaving the rest as blobs of buildings. A red X marked a spot on the outskirts.
Ben carried that map now, and had followed it to the marked location. He had no way to tell the exact time, but he believed it was near 3 PM. Andre should be showing up soon.
Ben, of course, hadn't come unprepared. He'd packed plenty of healing items in case this monster of a man was going to ambush him. He'd also informed quite a few people of where he was going and who was going to be there, so if he went missing, they'd know who to blame.
But, in all honesty, Ben didn't
really think Andre would attack him. The human-turned-deerling would surely know that killing or hurting Ben here would accomplish nothing. That, and Ben reluctantly had to admit that Andre had never actively wished harm upon him in particular - only his trainer.
He shoved the map into his satchel and waited. It wasn't long before a familiar lanky quadruped appeared from deeper into the town. The deerling, spotting Ben, trotted over. He slowed down and stopped a few meters away as he noticed Ben tensing up.
"Hey," he greeted, looking ashamed.
"Hey yourself," Ben said, offering no sympathy.
"Thank you… for coming," Andre said. "I'm sure it wasn't easy."
"Cut to the chase," the teddi grunted.
Andre sighed. "I said in my letter that we should say the things we need to say to one another now," he began. "Of course, I've said what I've wanted to say multiple times by now. It's that I'm sorry."
"And I've told you multiple times that it's not good enough."
"I know."
A beat of silence.
"What
would be good enough, Ben?" Andre then asked.
Ben wasn't sure what to say. 'Bring back Mike' wasn't possible. 'Have yourself committed' was something Andre had already tried. 'Kill yourself'? He'd apparently also tried that, and despite how much Ben loathed Andre, it felt like a ghoulish suggestion anyway.
"I don't know," Ben said. "I don't think there's anything good enough."
Andre was quiet for a spell. Then he spoke up again. "We can try something."
Ben frowned. "And what would that be?"
Andre sprouted a vine and grabbed his glasses. He walked a few meters away and set them down on the dusty ground alongside the rest of the belongings on his person before returning. Ben's brow quirked.
"Hurt me," Andre said.
Ben blinked. "What?"
"
Hurt me," Andre repeated, now more emphatically.
"...No," Ben said - though he found himself questioning why he was turning this opportunity down quite quickly.
"Think about it, Ben," the deerling said. "This is the only chance you'll have of hurting me for the rest of your life. This is the only chance you have to make me feel even just a tiny bit of the suffering I inflicted upon Mike. Do you really want to throw this away?"
Ben hesitated. "Well, the last time I attacked you, you --"
"I stabbed you. I know. It won't happen this time. I'm unarmed, and I'm used to battling from my time on Forlas."
"What about the battles to come? Won't you need to be in good shape for those?"
"People heal faster here," Andre said. "Especially us Wayfarers with how strong we are by now. I'll be fine."
Ben grasped a paw. He really didn't know what to do…
"I'll make it easy for you," Andre said.
"What do you mea-"
"I'm the reason Mike is dead, Ben."
Ben's jaw clenched.
"I'm the reason Mike is nothing now. Everything he was, every memory he had, every dream and aspiration - gone."
The deerling's words struck deep. The teddi swallowed. "Shut up," he said.
"Anything he might have gone on to do will never happen. Anything he would have told you - any words of affection or encouragement - you'll never hear it now."
"Shut up!" Ben said, tears beginning to form in his eyes.
Andre, however, was unfazed. All he did was hold that cold, resigned stare and keep saying the worst words imaginable. "He will never congratulate you on a match well fought again. He will not celebrate with you. He will not even hold a gaze on you."
As Ben sniffled, sorrow began to morph into rage.
How dare he say these things? How dare he add such insult to injury? Doesn't he know how much it hurts?
"His body is not in a grave, and it never will be. It was cut up into pieces and handed over to a bunch of professional criminals. It was probably thrown in a river, or maybe broken down by acids in a bathtub in a warehouse somewhere."
"Shut up!" snapped Ben, stepping up to Andre. "Shut the
fuck up! You don't have the right to say these things!"
But Andre only stared, his face blank.
"He," the deerling said, "will
never know you were in love with him."
Before Ben could understand what was happening, his claws had already torn three gashes across Andre's face.
The deerling had whined and winced, but not lost his footing. He kept standing, and he looked at Ben through squinted eyes.
Ben looked at his claws. Blood. It had been a while since he'd drawn it. Usually any opponents he faced in battle had been charged up to their battle state which shielded the body from sharp attacks.
He recalled the words of his tutor.
"Once blood has been drawn, the battle's over."
"Did that feel good?" Andre asked. His voice wavered. "You can do it again. As many times as it takes."
Ben glanced at the deerling.
For the first time since he'd recognized Andre on Forlas, he didn't see a monster.
He saw a pathetic, pathetic creature who simply didn't understand. Didn't understand people, didn't understand love, didn't understand justice. A creature that now
knew he didn't understand those things, but had come no closer to doing so. A creature that would
never understand.
Ben could no longer hate such a creature. It would have been like hating a feral dragon for trying to hunt people. Instead, he only felt pity.
Something odd then happened.
A warmth spread through Ben's body. His fur began to glow. The white light overtook his body, blinded his vision, remolded him.
When he saw again, he looked down on Andre from the height of an ursaring.
"What…" he got out, and noticed his voice had grown just a bit deeper, more resounding. Like it had been at home.
"Oh," said Andre. "Congratulations…"
Ben felt an absence on his hip and looked down to see his satchel on the ground, its strap torn. He picked it up. It seemed so small now in his new paws…
He then looked back to Andre.
"So, will you… will you hurt me some more?" the deerling asked. He sounded like he really didn't want to be hurt anymore, and yet also like he did.
Ben eyed Andre. "No," he then said. "There's no point. And it's not the person I am." He turned towards the city and began walking off.
"But…" Andre still tried. "You won't get to hurt me any more after this. You won't get to make me suffer. You won't get to avenge Mike!"
Ben threw a stern glance at the wounded deerling, and he shrank.
"You don't understand," said Ben. "I'm not
like you."
With that, he left, not looking back.
He didn't meet Andre again for the next few days.
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