Flora
local hellion
- Pronoun
- they/he/it/neos
OKAY MORE LIKE "I CAN LEGALLY DRINK ALCOHOL WHAT" BUT STILL MAN
this...isn't actually a "rachel is excited because she can legally drink" thread! this is...something else. it's actually a "rachel is forced to confront the fact that everyone does in fact enjoy her company" thread!
okay so if you've ever read my tumblr, or talked to me about like...anything, or even just read a couple grr thread posts, you're probably aware that my perception of other people's perception of me is...not very positive. I live in nigh-constant fear that everyone actually hates me. This summer's been PARTICULARLY difficult because shitty friend issues from last semester left me with bad self-esteem in the friend (and other people) department. (I had like three friends from school that I was 100% confident in, two of which had made their feelings on the matter super clear and one who was totally uninvolved.)
At the end of the year one of my friends made an interesting comment alluding to some twenty-first-birthday-plans involving me, which was...odd. i found out the truth about it like three days before i left for the summer:
the entire freaking grade wanted to celebrate.
which is....pretty alarming when presented to someone who thinks she fades into the background a lot.
i kinda thought they forgot about it over the summer until like two days ago when i got a text saying "yo rachel check the class facebook page!!! i posted something involving you!!!" and it turned out to be a post about plans for my birthday. (including the phrase "who's down to get cray for Ray" which is possibly the greatest thing I have ever heard) and EVERYONE was like "hell yeah wouldn't miss it for the world" and i????
goodness gracious i am an adult and i can't believe how nice people are
this...isn't actually a "rachel is excited because she can legally drink" thread! this is...something else. it's actually a "rachel is forced to confront the fact that everyone does in fact enjoy her company" thread!
okay so if you've ever read my tumblr, or talked to me about like...anything, or even just read a couple grr thread posts, you're probably aware that my perception of other people's perception of me is...not very positive. I live in nigh-constant fear that everyone actually hates me. This summer's been PARTICULARLY difficult because shitty friend issues from last semester left me with bad self-esteem in the friend (and other people) department. (I had like three friends from school that I was 100% confident in, two of which had made their feelings on the matter super clear and one who was totally uninvolved.)
At the end of the year one of my friends made an interesting comment alluding to some twenty-first-birthday-plans involving me, which was...odd. i found out the truth about it like three days before i left for the summer:
the entire freaking grade wanted to celebrate.
which is....pretty alarming when presented to someone who thinks she fades into the background a lot.
i kinda thought they forgot about it over the summer until like two days ago when i got a text saying "yo rachel check the class facebook page!!! i posted something involving you!!!" and it turned out to be a post about plans for my birthday. (including the phrase "who's down to get cray for Ray" which is possibly the greatest thing I have ever heard) and EVERYONE was like "hell yeah wouldn't miss it for the world" and i????
goodness gracious i am an adult and i can't believe how nice people are
