Yeah, I can see how actually studying philosophy would sap all the interest out of it. I guess though I'm just the kind of person who can think about things a lot without getting anxious. If I get wrapped up in a project or something I'll be into it for hours on end, like everything else in the world just fades away, ya know? But yeah, philosophic introspection should never be forced.
So can I, but the wrap-up for me isn't deconstructing what's happening - it's just doing it and enjoying it.
I'll give you an example. I've been learning English since I was a young young boy, mostly because a) I had some childhood exposure and b) I was a natural at any academic discipline at the time. (You could say I'm still pretty good, which would probably be true. But it was more marked then). But I've never really cared for the rules of English grammar. It's not that I don't understand how they work, I was taught that later in life. But it's not the rules that taught me to speak English. It's the fact I've been naturally doing it for 20 years that ensures I speak the language at (roughly) the same level as native speakers do.
In other words, I always enjoyed SPEAKING it. I didn't consciously think "well I should be speaking English because it's important for business and global commerce and really aids in finding you a job!"
No, I was just raised to more or less be able to be fully functional in the language and I've been reading and doing things in the language and kept up my ability to do it. I don't think about when I'm speaking English. I know I am not speaking Dutch for reasons xyz but I've been in so many situations where English is a necessity that it's fairly normal for anyone talking to me to have a response elicited in English.
Also, I think deconstructing why I am attracted to an artwork of some form is interesting because it's useful for creating awesome artwork in the future.
I disagree. I write the best things in a subconscious flow and state-of-mind where the music and lyrics naturally come and I will know whether they sound genuine and meant. If I think too much, a song feels constructed and not created. For example, I've had a chord progression I've been playing around with for ages that sounds good. But every lyric I've tried to write over it was horrible. Then I decided to just improv the riff with the band and I finally started singing something I could get behind inspired by a working title I came up with. It still sounds like a Taking Back Sunday lyric but we'll work on that (and it's a natural reference material for me)
It seems like your attitude toward philosophy is similar to my attitude toward politics. A long time ago, I used to get stressed out over what was right or wrong, and why other people didn't see it that way. It's really just an awful rat-race, and no one goes home happy. Really, it's the mire of the world.
Politics is a necessary evil in my view. Anyone who wants to be in politics should, in my view, automatically be persona non grata. This is because anyone who wants power is ipso facto unsuitable to carry it, because the ones that enjoy power are usually the ones that will use it for the wrong things. Leaders are those people who have the mantle thrust onto them and find to their surprise they wear it well.
This is why I am not a good leader. I don't have the attribute to be a leader - it is a forced thing.
The real issue is that some government is a necessity? Why? Because if there are no rules, there are weak people to be taken advantage. In a society where we want to embrace each other's lives, protecting these weak people is key, and having rules is a requirement for a level playing field. Politicians should be people who intrinsically have the ability to keep this playing field level. A politician should never need media training to feign outrage during incidents. It should be natural for the politician to feel this. Most politicians say these things because they have to, but they aren't actually emotionally affected by these incidents.
A politician is someone who innately thinks that a million deaths is a tragedy, not a statistic.