kyeugh

hahahah this is great

and maybe! i hope. assuming it ever happens

christian bale????? also that might kill me ow

probably.

i'm SO TEMPTED

i was also thinking of doing the worst game of twenty questions ever if he ends up going "oh you like someone who do you like"

he gets one question a day and after i give him an answer he gets one guess

also those cakes are great

idk, i contemplated the idea of serenading him.

chocolate??? or both. both is good.

i don't know i'm really bad at reading people

oh holy shit that IS pretty

Maybe. I don't know.

Omfg don't get ahead of yourself

literally everyone i've talked to about it who wasn't there was all "yeah he's totes flirting with you"

and then the witness was all "yeah there's like a twenty-five percent chance he's gay" so who knows. who knows.

(also yes hugging! this is greatly amusing because usually I'M the one doing that. also the first thing he said to me was "how are you sweetheart?" aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah)

Long story short he came up for homecoming and while he still hasn't figured out the crush thing he kep hugging me at dinner and also said "I think I'd love drunk Rachel almost as much as I love sober Rachel. Which is a lot" and a few people think this is flirting and I???? Don't???? Know???

they're....well, have you been followign the crush saga lately? because things started happening and i am very perplexed

No kidding lol

if you interact with me enough you end up discovering that my metaphors

are kind of like taking a simile and a blender and putting them in a microwave set to popcorn 3.5 oz

no man
srsly
it's an amazing idea
are lizard ppl the main character?

hopefully you don't turn into ryan in the future. cheers.

whoa
*poosh*
that was my brain imploding

ryan is this sardonic son-of-a-gun indifferent guy who's super cool but them becomes a bit of a genital head

make sure he doesn't get it
like before you give it to him
he knows how to whip

awesome
worldbuilding
keep at it broskis

it was. if you notice season 1 of parks, leslie is like michael scott in a skirt

oooh

Which ones?
look closely
very closely
veeery closely
michael schur is somewhere in the credits
hell, yesterday when I watched the Paris episode he showed up as an extra.

We all gave the ball to VM, and he didn't even catch it.

you should
I find it much better than Parks. Much, much better. The three additional seasons really help, and the fact that Scranton (the show's setting) is an actual town makes it much more realistic than Parks (which goes into blatant social mockery a couple times, especially with Perd and Jamm). Both are produced by one guy, though. (Michael Schur)

yeah, it slipped and died.

where will you be posting said fanfic? here, I hope?

i'm sorry I must disappoint you now dazel
the office>parks
i'm on season 6 already, so I have enough info

Yeah :) Having a girlfriend again is weird lol

it's was usually the history where that helped me, I think, but ... okay, area of a trapezoid, for example. not being able to give the area of a trapezoid makes it sound like you memorized the 1/2(b1+b2)h formula and moved on because ... okay I think the derivation should be straightforward if you learned it well: draw either diagonal, now you have two triangles with bases equal to the trapezoid's and altitude equal to its height, and you can add them. and then instead of memorizing a formula before you have an exam on it, you do a problem or two and the derivation has semantic meaning for you instead of "um I remember there are some letters but I don't remember which letters and what order". like if memorize the results you're probably cargo-culting and you can plug numbers in but then you have, like, people you learned that if x+2 = 3 then x=1 and can solve it for arbitrary constants but then are totally stumped by "y+2 = 3, y = ?".

and ... I don't know if this would help you, but if you have thick enough skin for it, try getting some competition. the "wow everyone I care about is getting 18 and I'm scoring an 11 orz" feeling is ... probably individually variable. really helps with setting attainable standards because like a lot of time with classes it's ... hard to tell, and you're always pressured to not fail. but in a competitive setting, especially if you go into it fully expecting not to come out on the other side, you definitely get a good reference point on what is attainable, and even that isn't quite where you'd want to put your goals (... because like, actually setting your goal as being top 5% of humanity, it's basically going to have to come at the expense of something), it puts the goals you are setting into perspective, you know?

competitive environments are great for forcing yourself to learn something thoroughly because in order to distinguish people the problems basically have to be the kind where if you're doing it by rote you're not going to get very far in. and the the reward for success is basically okay, now you have even more you need to learn, you meet more people who are even more better at this than the people who used to seem semi-divine at locals (and now you're one of them), and unless you've been keeping up, just stick around for the show ♥ but the consequence for failure is basically people barely even notice that you're there.

which isn't to say it's not stressful, there's a lot of stress you can make for yourself even without a good reason, but it's the kind of stress where you can legitimately be like okay I can't handle this and take a break, and unless you have a track record of being amazing nobody's going to be severely disappointed in you.

I have no idea where I was going with this but I'm just leaving it here.

... virtual charter school, huh.

it seems more likely that you're trying to do the Right Thing and do an appropriate amount of work ... but then not having the experience to do the right kind of work which actually results in you internalizing the information. might need a bit of experimenting for a bit; I mean, if you feel like you'd be failing by continuing with this approach, not much to lose, eh?

the problem isn't so much "doing everything"; if you're trying to do everything, that is probably not an optimal mode of studying for you. it will not be sustainable.

it can be hard to tell when you know something well enough. you will likely never be able to figure that out if you do work which is on par with expectations. find problem which are beyond what you're expected to know, try to understand not just results but their derivations. understanding derivations instead of being able to regurgitate results is very important. you don't usually have to be able to run through the whole proof without assistance, but at least being able to explain why a particular result has the form it has ... I am saying this as if I'm talking about maths but mathematical derivations people usually will identify. this is useful especially for things like history and literary criticism, the minutia won't matter quite so much as the themes and the reasoning.

if you can, stay far ahead of schedule, enough to cover the applications or aftermaths of what you're supposed to be learning at the moment, but don't worry too much about the specific details until you're being taught it. this part feels super-tedious if you're not into it and then it makes the actual lectures also feel super-tedious when you don't get anything new, but just being able to hear it and go "yeah, yeah" because you already read it is way better than not being sure what exactly and then reading and going "ah, so that's what it was."

if you find yourself spending more than ~3x as much time out of class on something than in class, that's a pretty good sign that something went wrong and it's worth getting help. usually it'll be because you missed something critical; sometimes it'll be because the person planning the course miscalibrated their expectations and in those cases it helps for them to know that, too. (being in a class where only three people actually managed to get through a particular lesson and feel like they got it is Not Fun, regardless whether you're one of the people who got it ...)

... that said, if two pages of problems and four pages of reading feels overwhelming, um I'm sorry but it doesn't get better.

don't pull the "in my defense"-es on yourself, though! there are no defenses, only results :&&& you don't get systems that work out in your favour very often, working around the system is also a valuable skill. (note that in most cases, calling out the system in an effort to get it fixed does count. but you still need a backup plan.) things that aren't your fault but affect you, you still have to deal with them somehow until you get someone else to.

... you can say what you will about how this underprivileges the marginalized, and it's true, it's not a healthy way for a society to function but at the individual scale, you kind of just have to do what you have to do.

I am like the third least qualified person to be giving life study advice though ...