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I am rather interested in it now lol.

AND YEEEEES. I was so worried about her omg.

Ah, that explains it.

I just messaged her lol :)

You mispelled my name :P And it's okay, you'll adjust eventually :P

Oh! I'll take care of that right away. What's her user name?

Not if I try hard enough!

And most siblings are anyway :P

"I did everything right."

fwiw, this is a huge red flag.

the first thing is, it's p notable that not a lot of people claim "I did everything right" when they, you know, actually did everything right and things worked out well. so it basically sounds like entitled arrogant lack of responsibility ... like, "I did exactly what was required and no more and I am appalled that I am not receiving additional compensation." (... tangentially, I also think american tipping culture is really weird and seriously raise the fucking prices and give appropriate base pay. that is unrelated though.)

like when people succeed, whether justified or not, they like to point to miscellaneous factors that they perceived to have helped them out? the basic expectations aren't a recipe for success, they're basic expectations where if you don't meet them you're definitely expected to fail but even if you do meet them there's no implication that you're doing really well...

moreover the notion of "doing everything right" really, really generally reeks of cargo cult practices where someone can perfectly achieve, like, the outward appearance of doing everything actually right, without actually doing it actually right, and then not realize that the essence of the right thing isn't actually captured by the outward appearance they're imitating.

like studying well and learning and internalizing what you've learned isn't actually about doing the homework and taking notes and reading the material ... if you're doing those things because you're thinking that's the right thing to do instead of setting your goal as learning the material ... that's a problem and you're not going to get the material down.

because the reality is, basically all work which isn't getting checked or marked is optional. (this doesn't have much to do with whether there's credit for it, though ... if it's getting checked at all, you should probably do it anyway.) they are recommendations which set a baseline expectation. it is not sufficient to just do them. it literally doesn't matter whether or not you do them, what matters is that you learn the material you're being examined for.

that means effort, like mentally strenuous effort, and that is not the same as spending hours slogging through tedious busywork. there is a substantial difference between strenuous work and tedious work once you experience it. (my experience of it is, strenuous work is actually engaging and even if you still don't like it, it's at least something you can respect after you're done with it. tedious work eats up your time and you don't learn anything, although it does help keep your skills sharp. ymmv though.)

it's not like your entitled to something and they're giving you shitty resources; they're telling you to build a house and they're giving you a stick and a piece of paper, but nobody's really expecting you to use just the stick and the piece of paper for the whole house, and they don't actually have the resources to give you to build a house with because the materials they have can only be used with expensive equipment that they can't just loan out. ... also my metaphors suck.

if you think you did everything right and things didn't turn out okay usually it is because you did it wrong.

if you're in a particularly bad mood and/or not really open to admittedly kind of aggressive-rantish elaboration of what irritated me about that attitude, this might be kind of unhelpful but um.

Bah, I can make it go away!

From what you said he sounds weird lol

How do I think I'm fat? I have a weight, and it's too much.

Lol, it's good that he's social, but yeah that is weird :P

Aha! I knew it was true! Lol, but sorry for doing this to you; I'm still have convinced I'm fat even though my ribs right now are looking a little stark.

It's sort of like, he's underdeveoloped other skills, like social, but he excels in others.

It is not a lie, and of course other people should listen to it like the truth, because it is.

Lol, sounds like he's a savant :P

I don't tell lies. Everyone around me does.

0_0 Is he some sort of protege?

Because I refuse to listen to lieeeeeeesssss.

It's okay, I can't do that for the life of me either lol.

But I know my body better than everyone else. And I know I;m fat.

Lol, yeah, it takes a lot of work, but the results are amazing ;p

read your post about not being good at ninth grade and i will tell you that high school gets easier as long as you give half a crap. i'm a junior now and with some work and social etiquette you'll get pretty far

But how do I know it's not just me trying to lie to myself, that I'm actually not fat, or whatever?

Ah, that's awesome! Give it time lol, I'm sure you'll be able to play anything soon :p

Ummmm, I don't know.

It was hard at first, but then it became all muscle memory lol. And that doesn't really surprise me :p

But I can still seee mee faaaaaaat.

Aww, that's awesome! I can only play the flute myself, but I want to learn how to play the piano soon.

They why can't I fly then? I'm fat enough lol. And tbh, I kind of honestly believe it. I mean, I think there's a part of me that knows it's ridiculous, but the rest can't stand to see this body.

Exactly. And me too lol.

Hmm . . . nope, I'm still fat. And I can't fly. Because fat.

IDk. I just don't like them lol. It's fine, it just sucks, it's not like debilitating like before.

But then I'll die because of all my faaaaaaaaaaaat!

I hate naps lol, and I sort of didn't lol, because I'm sick /again/

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