- Pronoun
- she/her
Ah, this again.
Uh. Different things can do something for me at different times and in different contexts, if we're speaking strictly of actual turn-ons that do something for me in the form of porn and such. I don't have a very major thing for anything in particular.
However, I've noticed that in real life I get an odd kind of enjoyment out of the very idea of inducing pleasure in a partner, not just "aw, I love you and I want you to feel good" but in a selfish way as well. It feels... victorious, you could say. I guess this could be a kind of dominance thing? Not sure. It doesn't turn me on, per se, but it's by far my favorite part of sex, more than getting anything physical out of it myself.
Uh. Different things can do something for me at different times and in different contexts, if we're speaking strictly of actual turn-ons that do something for me in the form of porn and such. I don't have a very major thing for anything in particular.
However, I've noticed that in real life I get an odd kind of enjoyment out of the very idea of inducing pleasure in a partner, not just "aw, I love you and I want you to feel good" but in a selfish way as well. It feels... victorious, you could say. I guess this could be a kind of dominance thing? Not sure. It doesn't turn me on, per se, but it's by far my favorite part of sex, more than getting anything physical out of it myself.
...and then there's when I got disturbingly wet watching Firefly the other day, even though I was not actually mentally aroused. The episode was "Out of Gas", half of which consists of Mal (my favorite character) stumbling around and trying to fix a spaceship after having been shot in the stomach while only barely able to breathe thanks to the life support being down, before eventually passing out from blood loss and lack of oxygen and nearly dying. I do have a thing for that sort of thing (which is the main reason this is one of my favorite episodes, along with one in which said Mal is tortured to death and one in which he is poisoned by the kiss of a disturbingly young-looking girl who had successfully seduced him after a while of feeble resistance), but I've always insisted that it's not sexual in the least. I don't know if this actually means anything, but I guess it is worth mentioning as it's giving me some second thoughts about it.