Eloi

WHAT that's not true! ; ; My animal-self-thing is a bear. That is... the animal that I connect to most. And that I would be. If I weren't human. What do you have against bears and cats?!

Thanks :D haha. He's a raccoon dog, but sort of... manipulated a bit to represent what I wanted more.

Oh, no, I don't really write, aside from RPing occasionally... He's just a sort of general muse that I like to draw. :] You should be able to see him here...

Ahaha, I just spent the past few hours drawing my character Anthony giving himself a shot of heroine. xD Uplifting, haha.

Hm, yeah. I also need a job, but often I just feel so not-wanting-one or like I just couldn't manage to keep one so I don't... try to get one. Idk. :| It's a down-on-myself thing I guess. Sigh!

Huh. Do they work like... well? Maybe he could work uh, idk, doing computer stuff. *not that computer savvy...* Though apparently he's doing pretty well as is. o_o

He's less worse with managing money? :P Haha. I'm no good at most of the money-managing stuff, but I'm very cheap, so. I think it'd work out, aside from taxes, because I can't do maths at all.

Well, I don't see what's wrong with dehumanizing, honestly.

Guh I'm jealous. :[ I wish I had an apartment. Poo. How does he have three computers? What does he do for like, cash?

How are cats a pestilence? xD And what's wrong with the pronoun it?!

Do you live with your bf? Sorry, random question, but how old're you? |D

That's strange, most people do the opposite, and refer to all cats as females. o_O

I should probably do the same, but uhh, I've never been good at keeping records of things. >>;

Sean's a girl. :P We adopted him from a family nearby whose dog gave birth, s'how we know his lineage.

Oh, I don't mind hearing you ramble, especially not if it helps you in any way. I do my fair share of rambling, so I definitely don't judge.
Idk how to help, though, hr, or what to say... To me it sounds like clinical depression? But I'm not a psychologist so I can't diagnose anything. :\ Does your psychologist recommend medication, or...? How are you working on it?

Hrmm, well I love many dogs, most dogs that is, but I think my favourites are probably pitt bulls, and small dogs like chihuahuas. :D But I usually prefer mutts, not purebreds. I have three atm... one secccc...

- Here's Kissy, actual name Crystal but we call her anything but that, usually Kissy obviously but also tushy-face, Fishy, boobienipple, armpit, or anything that comes to mind really because she'll come to anything. :D She's my oldest, 10 years old, got her when I was ten, so naturally I'm sort of most attached to her. I constantly request her paw in marriage. :P

- Sean, second-oldest. He's around 2 1/2 years old. Both him and Kissy actually share my birthday, him to the exact date and Kissy we're guessing because she was two months old when we found her, and we found her two months after my birthday. So. :] Anyhow, Sean's a strange mix of dogs that we know exactly: half Golden Retriever (pure), 1/4 German Sheppard, 1/4 Cana'an Dog. But he looks like a pure Golden Retriever, just black. :D

Annnd lastly, Charlie. He's the youngest, around 10 months, and he's literally an idiot. He pees on himself and on beds and uhg he's so stupid. But I can't get rid of him or anything because look at the cute. Dx And he can't figure out that, you know, GO PEE OUTSIDE. Sigh.

Well, yes, those are my dogs. xD

:P Sometimes I don't respond that fast, I do need to sleep/watch tv/play games/waste time you know. In fact I should be sleeping now, considering it's 3 am...

Do you have like, diagnosed depression? I tend to think in the same way. But, and I might be biased here haha, but I think I probably get more extreme. Just because, well, well because a bunch of things, namely my history and the fact that, no matter how much I try to ignore it, I'm bipolar and it tends to fuck my life over from every which way, but I'm just assuming things about you here, or lack of things, so. Like I'm assuming you haven't been a failure in your life, in things like school and whatnot, and have some sort of future to look forward to.
What sort of things do you er, criticize yourself for?

Aw. |D haha. It's so much easier to find cool people online, I swear. *has no rl friends*

Hmm, that's pretty cool, about your name. :D Whenever I'm asked about my name (what it means) I just go uhhhhh well it means 'gift' but that's not really why I chose it. But I don't want to go into detail about why I chose it with most people. Yaknow. Haha.

I never heard of that term, the zipless fuck, ahaha. That's pretty cool. :D Idk if I'll use the term with er, everyone I know, though. Like, parents. ... Although I probably wouldn't be explaining my sexual interests to them anyhow, so. Errrr. Yeah.

Dogs are great proof of everything. :P For example, need proof of, uhh... cuteness? (okay I've run out of ideas, I'm tired.)

Are you depressed? D:

Mm, well I was looking for a name that works better in Hebrew, because Kris sounds terrible in Hebrew. And I was looking for somewhat gender-neutral names. And I found Shai, and it just sounds nice. So. :D (I was consindering either Shai or Shaye, but the former is an actual Jewish name, so.)

Well, perhaps if I ever, like, leave my house, and... idk... have a job... haha. Basically there are things higher on my list at the moment. xD That's just waaaay down the list of importance, really. I have practically no sex-drive, and almost never think about it, it's just a possibility sometime in the future, if ever. But not the most important one. More important are current things, pretty much.

Bah, yes. The thing is, people don't think about the message it sends, and when you point it out, they're just o_O at you, like as if the toys you give kids doesn't tell them anything at all. I mean obviously indoctrination takes more than just toys but it is part of the message they receive about gender and expectations.

YES to the societal thing. Thing is, my mom's response to that would be 'yeah but what's wrong with that?' or 'but it doesn't hurt anyone'. But it does. :| fug. Society reinforces strict gender codes everywhere you go, but 'post-feminists' see this as a totally normal, good thing because it's not society doing it, it's the actual gender, or shit like that. Fuck, I don't even know, it pisses me off, and I live with it all day. :| I hate society sometimes, I really do. Which is a pain because I love people. I mean, not the general 'people', but individuals, you know? Most individuals are really cool. I'm a total sap for people. But why we gotta be such... idk, asses. :[

I get a really strict view of how biology works, on that topic, because of how much I've er, learned about dogs, and my views on them. Basically dogs do everything off of instinct, and there's no conscious thought on a higher level, like we have. (And I don't mean that to be 'bad', I love dogs, they're my favourite sorts of people, haha. They just react based on instincts rather than emotional or logical thought processes.) Whereas we have the instincts but we subdue them so much to the point we're hardly aware of what they even are nearly 90% of the time (that percentage is made up don't pay attention to it :D). We think so much that even our body language is entirely controlled.

SO, saying something like gender has a noticeable influence on who you are is ridiculous. It doesn't have a noticeable difference on dogs, who act entirely on instinct. Why would it have any difference on us, who have the ability to ignore instinct?

Though most people probably disagree with my view of dogs. :P I think that way about most animals, though, not just dogs, to be clear. Definitely all domesticated animals.

:D TY! I love my names. I couldn't really go with Chris for multiple reasons: the squish of my life (a squish being a non-romantic crush) is Chris Colfer, and having the same exact name (barring the last name) would be weird. Also, I'm Jewish, as much as I try to forget that, haha. And being a Jew named Chris would be weird, not just for me, but for my parents/family. And Kris is an awesome, gender-ambiguous name anyhow. Soooo. :D

That's not too detailed, I think it's just like, specific... er... examples that make me visualize it, usually I'm completely cool and not visualizing it at all and even pretty dirty myself. Ask gew, it'll tell you, we're really dirty together, but in a totally non-sexual way. xD
But I get what you mean about disliking hetero sex with hetero parts, in a way. I'm actually gray-a, meaning there are like, very specific circumstances under which sex would uh, not be squicky to me, so I do 'get it' in a way? I think. Well, more than totally-ace aces. Er. For me it's basically (and this is really weird, and I know it is, ahaha) but if I don't know the person, like, a one-night-stand, I can be sexual. But if I know the person at all I can't be sexual or think of them sexually at all. I sort of connect it to my being aromantic; if I were to attempt to be sexual with someone I knew it would be too entrenched in romantic emotions, not by... trying to make it romantic, but just because I know them. So it has to be emotional. And I can't connect those too without it disturbing me.
So basically I'll probably never have sex, or if I do it'll be with strangers. Ahaha. And sorry if I went into too much detail. xD

I also loved stuffed animals as a kid. Barbie's just so wrong and sends such a horrible message to children. Also all those stupid dolls like the burpy babies and whatever, uhg, ban those too. :| Girls are not supposed to be taught they're meant to give birth and be mothers from when they're kids. Uhg.

I'd also ban gendered commercials. I mean, I get gendered clothes, that's a whole other issue, but having gendered commercials for kids toys is just plain ... childish. :| GIRLS CAN PLAY WITH TOY TRUCKS TOO OKAY? Arhg. Sigh.

Some things bother me so much I can't even explain it :[ I think the problem is, my mother is one of those self-described 'post-feminists'. You know what I'm talking about? She thinks my feminism is wrong because 'there are clear differences between men and women and there is truth in stereotypes'. And they don't hurt anyone, clearly. Arhggg.

Oh no, it's not your fault, it's mine, I'm just oversensitive to sexual things. But only in certain circumstances which sets a double standard and is confusing in general. :\ Sigh.

If we're gonna be banning Eminem, I'd love to add a few other things to the list... like Barbie. And gendered bathrooms. And smoking. (Just reverse the laws on smoking and weed. They make no sense in their current position; one is unhealthy and one isn't! I don't get itttt.) Pfeh, there's more but yeah...

Also, you can call me Shai or Kris, since I obviously don't stick to one username for an extended period of time. :P

Oh, well, I don't find it to actually be offensive, it's just like, sex, or sexual, you know. Nothing actually wrong with that. I just don't enjoy it and prefer not to think about it. I think it just happens that when like, specific occasions are described to me I visualize it. Idk. Dx

I wish I could just ban Eminem, but that's like... wrong and shit. :[ BUT IT'S WRONG TO MAKE ME LISTEN TO IT TOO. Ahg.

It's the licking that bothers me! Not the dirtyness. Well, different kinds of dirty. I'm a very asexual ace. >>;

It was unbearable. And is. Uhg. I haaaaate him. :| uhsdfsd.

Oh wow sorry, but ew. xD I mean nothing wrong with that, but I accidentally visualized it and erhg. Idk why I visualize things at exactly the wrong time...

I've been 'ear raped' by being forced to listen to Eminem constantly for around a year and a half and having everyone sing it all the time so now I hit anyone who attempts to sing it or play it. And I hit hard so no one ever does. >| I hate him. Hate hate hate. Uhg.

Oh wow. ... xD Well, only really good concerts! And really good music. :P But I don't play music, I just sing, so. Really good singing is vocal masturbation? Ahaha. And singing for others is only sex if it's singing well and they enjoy it. I don't want to say otherwise it's rape because, well, it isn't, but otherwise it just isn't ear-sex. Also I don't think most people experience the pleasures of ear-sex! ... Er, in an a non-insert-genitalia-into-ear sort of way. Although most people probably don't do that either... o_o

Cool :)