Damn, it really sucks that that happened with you and your friend. :c
"the story we're writing about her love life where everyone overreacts to everything. :V"
Wait, is this like an actual story? Because this would so make for an epic TV show.
"thanks for listening to me ; ; i can't say that enough"
Hey, it's absolutely no problem. :P
Ugh, the boyfriend. :c Things have taken a turn for the worse and the uncertain. I wrote a long post explaining everything and the fucking forum fails. >.< Basically, most people I've spoken to are like "contact him anyway" or "break up with him." I'm a little worried that he willbreak up with me, or that he'll cheat or something... but I can't even say anything until he's actually gone, you know? I could make this easier and just break up. I guess. But how can I quit before it's even started?
The thing is I trust him when he says what he says. Maybe I should be more on my guard or something, but paranoia has never served me well. On the contrary, many of my Grr posts are about how my paranoia was ruining my relationship. If I let it get back now, then I'll be worse than when I started. Ugh...
He says that he knows when he starts to go to one end of the scale, and that he's felt it coming recently. That's the reason he wanted a break. I guess it's like if you're Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, you cage yourself at night to prevent Hyde from coming out (never actually read this book so :x idk if this actually happens). Still, I think we should have some contact. Today I'm gonna call him and suggest that we send letters, because you can't send letters instantly and they're a physical reminder and all that.
Sometimes it's just... I see other people and for them it's so easy. They see their darlings every day (or at least saw them at school) and none of them have any mental conditions or anything and yet they still fight and shit. I'm trying to keep it all together under very different conditions. I resent them, I really do. Ultimately, I do think that we're going to stay together once school starts, and I do think that he's not going to cheat or do anything stupid. Because that's what love and trust mean, I guess. :x Even though I feel like shit, I trust him for those two months he'll be gone. Still won't prevent me from getting jittery and desperately wanting school to start so I could see him again and know for sure whether my trust paid off.
EDIT: So uh, if you'll see my recent post in the Grr thread, you'll know why I don't talk to my friend about my relationship issues. Mostly because nothing she's ever said has actually been helpful. I know that she means well but uh, yeah.
Fuck, everything's just falling apart. The one thing I had was trust. Now she's putting even that into question. I wish she'd just say "don't date him because he's a lying troll" because at least that would be straightforward.