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Something... strange.

Arylett Charnoa

Arylett Charnoa

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It's a good kind of something strange.

I think.

Today I had a talk. A very, very long and deep searching talk with a friend of mine. Another friend. And I went deep... deep into myself and the core of everything I am and the deep root behind the way I act. We discussed it.

Together.

And I feel so odd. I think I feel odd in a good way though. Shaken, because I've never... spoken such things. But good.

She made me realize that I'm /not/ a terrible person. I can't help the way I am and it's okay. And it's natural.

I feel very odd. I'm crying and I just feel very anxious and yet at the same time really calm, the experience was very shaking. But I feel like I've finally said what I've wanted to say. I'm very calm and very anxious. My feelings are hard to describe, I don't feel anything at all. Placid, sort of. I feel more like a person than I've ever felt, I feel /real/. I've never felt like this in my entire life. Like I don't have to worry about anything anymore... it's going to be okay. As if I've unlocked some part of myself, some special deep part. I don't even feel like I used to anymore, I feel like a completely different person. Like I don't have to lie anymore and I don't have to pretend. Because what I am... it's okay. It's really not that bad.

Now I'm trying to find some way to ruin it, unconsciously. Because that's what I always do. But I don't want to ruin this, I don't want this to go away. I hope this doesn't go away. And I hope I don't find some way to ruin it.

She deserves many thanks.

And I know this post probably sounds nothing like me, but this is how I feel. I must sound very strange and you must have little idea of what I'm talking about. I don't care. Because I feel very strongly about this, more strongly than I've ever felt in my life.
 
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Well, that's good. I'm glad you found this out about yourself, and I'm glad your friend helped. ^_^

*hug*
 
Oh, you've experienced self-discovery? That's nice.
I guess my time will come, some day. But I'm also happy for your achievement. And I also thank the friend, for her partaking. :D
 
I used to have talks like those. And, I think, part of my problem is that I want to have such talks again.

They're wonderful. I'm happy for you.
 
This made me smile. :D

I mean, uh, you sound like you're still in some kind of shock, but it's awesome you've figured this (whatever this is) out, and I'm glad you're so happy~

*Hugs and a Kinovacupcake*
 
:] It's great to have someone to be able to talk about things like that with. It can really help you get a lot off your chest. Awesome that you're happy and stuff! Yay! Dance!
 
Music Dragon said:
I used to have talks like those. And, I think, part of my problem is that I want to have such talks again.

They're wonderful. I'm happy for you.
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I know what you mean.

Thank you.

Kinova said:
This made me smile. :D

I mean, uh, you sound like you're still in some kind of shock, but it's awesome you've figured this (whatever this is) out, and I'm glad you're so happy~

*Hugs and a Kinovacupcake*
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I was in shock. But now I feel overall better, a bit more confident, and more truthful. It has led me to telling the truth more often.

What I figured out was that I wasn't a bad person. Not at all! It made you smile, that just astonishes me that it could have that effect on you. Thank you very much.

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Huh... well... I am happy for you I think... But you really should talk more with people.
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...this comment was very odd and yet it made perfect sense. I know exactly what you meant.

Catch-22 said:
Yay Arylett! I'm so happy for you. ^^
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I'm glad. I'm glad so many people are happy for me.

Catch-22 said:
Talking more doesn't make you a better person. o.o

I kind of think that was a major point of the thread.
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Actually, the major point was that talking it through /helped/ me. And thus I can see why they say I should talk more to people, because it was a big shock.

Spaekle Oddberry said:
:] It's great to have someone to be able to talk about things like that with. It can really help you get a lot off your chest. Awesome that you're happy and stuff! Yay! Dance!
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Yeah. It was very helpful. It made me feel better than I've ever felt in my life. ;;Arylettdances;; Crazybuddies, dancing together~

Cirrus said:
<333! Always!
There's nothing else to say. XD
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<3 MCBC. <3

You. Are. Too. Wonderful. ;;Gives you many Awesome Points;;

turbler said:
YAY Arylett has overcome inner turmoil! I'm really glad for ya'
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You summed that up more perfectly than words could ever know. I like that, the way you said it. Thank you.

cheesecake said:
Yayz for you! I'm glad you could experience something like that.
*gives giant cookie*
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;;Eats;; My, my! With all these sweets, Arylett's going to be very bloated!

Blaziking 175 said:
For some reason, I'm thinking of Atnura from RSP right now...

Anyways, tis excellent that thou hast learnest this about thyself young skywalker. *bow*

*hands a cake*
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;;Eats;; Want me to let you on a secret that's probably going to freak you out? Atnura was based on me. I mean, I don't hear voices in my head or want to commit suicide obviously, but she's basically based on me.

Also, that post was very much like my RP-style, so I can see why you'd think that. I like it that you appreciate my happiness.

Alexi said:
Well, that's good. I'm glad you found this out about yourself, and I'm glad your friend helped. ^_^

*hug*
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Alexi. I loved talking to it about you, you are nice, yes. Thank you. ;;Hugs back;;

Eclipse said:
Oh, you've experienced self-discovery? That's nice.
I guess my time will come, some day. But I'm also happy for your achievement. And I also thank the friend, for her partaking. :D
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Well, I guess discovering that I'm not the scum of the earth counts as self-discovery. It is a big achievement. I think it's a step in the right direction.

To Person Who Tagged This Failing At Thread Titles: You're missing the point. I am /happy/, do you really have to ruin this with such pettiness? Seriously. I have this amazing revelation and all you care about is my thread title? I'm not saying you have to care about me or my life, that's fine. What I'm saying is that was pretty petty of you. And go ahead and tell me that I still fail at thread titles, but that /still/ isn't the point.
 
No, just about every thread gets tagged 'failing at thread titles' at some point.
 
Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful for you, Arlyett! Something similar happened to me last Tuesday. It truly is wonderful~

And on an unrelated note, your user title makes me giggle and I don't know why X3
 
Thank you! Ahahahaha, I'm glad someone else could feel like this too.

My user title is very strange. I can see why it would make you giggle. It's a very crazy injoke between me and my awesomenocity friend. (Also, if you think my user title is funny, you're going to like this.)
 
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